A small, helpless cry rang through the quiet hospital room and you stirred.
Groggily you opened your eyes and pushed Hawk’s wing down to peer over the top.
“What is… OH! BABY!!!!”
You wriggled your way out from underneath Hawks and gingerly hopped out of bed, waddling and limping around to the hospital crib to pick up little Hiyoko for a feed.
You unwrapped him and picked him up, walking over to the chair to sit down and feed.
As you plopped down you pulled your top up and flopped a boob out, fiddling around until you got him attached.
He latched on and started sucking.
“God, this feels weird???” You thought with a wince as the feeling of his little mouth sucking on your nipple send a weird stinging pain into your breast.
He fed for a bit then he fell asleep, unlatching and flopping back away from your boob.
“Oh….He’s asleep again…”
You picked him up gently and wrapped him up again to put him back in the crib then walked back around and hopped back into the hospital bed next to Hawks.
You had just drifted off when you heard Hiyoko squeak again.
“What’s he want now?” You thought as you got up to him again.
“You ok, baby?” Hawks asked softly in his ‘just woke up voice’ when he felt you stir and get up again.
“I think so? Hiyoko is awake again but I just fed him so he can’t be hungry?” You said in a tired voice as you picked your little bundle up.
Hiyoko opened his mouth and started looking for a nipple, huffing softly with his mouth open.
“That’s the hungry sign isn’t it?” Hawks asked with a yawn as he sat up and looked at you and Hiyoko.
“Ok well… I’ll feed him again.” You said as you repeated the same ritual as before.
Hiyoko fed for a small time then fell asleep again so you bundled him up and lay him back in the cot.
Hawks gave you a cuddle as you hopped back into bed then settled down with you again.
You just drifted off slowly when Hiyoko called out again.
You groaned as you stirred.
“Why does he keep waking up?” You wailed softly as you got up to him again.
You fed him again, then once again he fell back asleep so you hopped back into bed.
15 minutes later he was awake again.
You burst into tears when you heard him.
“Baby?” Hawks asked groggily, “is he awake again?”
“I just want to sleep!” You cried as you got up.
“Let me call for the nurse, she might be able to help?” Hawks said as he pushed the call button.
It was now 3:30am and the nurse walked in with a smile as you stood there looking dead with a baby in arms.
“How are you Mrs Takami?” She asked pleasantly.
“I’m tired and Hiyoko won’t sleep.” You said bluntly, wiping the tears from your eyes.
“When did he feed last?” The nurse asked, taking Hiyoko from your hands.
“Like… 20 minutes ago?” You croaked.
“How long did he feed for?” She asked as she tickled Hiyoko’s cheek. He immediately swung his head towards her hand and tried to latch onto her finger.
“Only a short time then he fell asleep.” You said as you watched her.
“He’s still hungry.” She said with a smile, “let me help you.”
She sat you down and helped you get Hiyoko attached again.
“Ok, when Hiyoko falls asleep, tickle his little foot or his hand to wake him back up so he feeds for longer.” She said as she sat back and looked over at Hawks who was fading quickly in the hospital bed.
“Why don’t they make the boys do the breastfeeding.” You grumbled when you saw Hawks drift off to sleep again.
The nurse chuckled softly.
“Every new mother asks that same question.” She replied. “It’s because we can handle it, guys wouldn’t last one day as a breastfeeding mother.”
Just then little Hiyoko fell asleep and the nurse gestured to him.
“Give him a little tickle.” She encouraged.
You tickled his tiny foot and he woke up again, sucking furiously and gulping down the milk.
“There you go.” The nurse said softly, “just keep waking him up until you can’t wake him anymore.”
“Thank you so much.” You said gratefully.
“Not a problem.” The nurse replied as she stood to leave. “He’s only just new so he will need to feed more often but after he finishes this feed he should go for 2 hours.”
“2 HOURS?! Only 2 hours?!” You wailed internally. “Well I guess it’s better than every 20 minutes.”
Little Hiyoko finally finished a good feed and you put him back to sleep and flopped into the bed next to Hawks again.
The next time you woke it was the next day already and you looked at the clock on the wall.
“7:10am. It’s morning already?! Oh my gosh Hiyoko, IS HE OK?!”
You pushed Hawks’s wing off quickly and looked over at your baby who was sleeping peacefully in his cot.
“Oh thank goodness, he’s alright.”
You sighed and lay back.
“Morning baby.” Hawks mumbled as he kissed your cheek when he felt you stir. “How did you go last night?”
You just gave him the dirtiest glare and he pulled back a bit.
“W-What did I do?” He asked apprehensively.
“You and you’re useless nipples.” You grumbled.
He gave you an apologetic look.
“I’m sorry.” He said as he hugged you, “I’ll get up with you tonight and help as much as I can.”
“Thank you, I would like that.” You said as you lay back down and shut your eyes.
Just then Hiyoko squeaked and you groaned.
“Here we go again.”
After spending 4 days in hospital they gave you and Hiyoko a clean bill of heath and you prepared to leave.
True to his word, Hawks had gotten up with you at night and had either offered to burp Hiyoko or given you a neck massage while you were feeding, which you greatly appreciated.
“All the very best with your new baby.” The nursing staff congratulated you and you thanked them all again for their help.
“Where’s my baby and mummy!” Brian asked excitedly as you and Hawks, with Hiyoko, made your way to his car.
“Right here Brian.” You said excitedly with a big smile.
“Oh I am SO excited to be the one to take you both home!” He squealed, “Hawks told me he would fly home so it’s just you and me and baby makes 3, babes!”
You smiled as he opened the back door of the car and you put the sleeping Hiyoko into the baby car seat.
Hawks gave you a kiss goodbye before taking to the sky and Brian helped you into the passenger seat.
“Sooooo, what’s it like being a mummy?” He queried as he flicked his non-existent fringe back.
“Honestly it’s hard.” You sighed, “Hawks tries to help but he can’t do very much.”
“Oh babyyy.” Brian pouted, “I’ll stay over tonight and help ok? I will make you hot drinks, carry Hiyoko, give you massages, change nappies, I will be the best gay nanny you could EVER ask for!” He said as he waved his hand around.
“Really?!” You said with relief in a quivering voice as a tear slid down your cheek.
“Of course honey bunch.” He said excitedly, “it would be an honour to nanny Beyoncé’s divine child.” Then he saw you crying. “Awwww, pooh bear, don’t cry!”
“But I’m just so happy!” You wailed as you sobbed harder.
“Oh my sweet bean, don’t you worry about a THING, uncle Bri-bri has got you.” He said as he placed a beautifully manicured hand on your leg and patted you reassuringly.
“Thank you Bri.” You wailed.